Yesterday I had some energy work done. The result, a renewed
spirit full of light and love. A definite weight has been lifted, thank the
Universe. I feel like a new person. I am so deeply thankful for those that have been with me and
that have helped me throughout this journey. A rock has been turned, I can feel the warmth
of the sun, the cool whisper of a breeze……although there is still plenty of soul
work to be done, I am at last feeling. If you have ever felt like
your vibrancy, the feelings of emotions, your vitality had evaporated into thin
air, as though it was stolen from you and you felt at a loss as to where to begin
to look, a feeling of extreme exhaustion and helplessness, then you know how I have
been feeling these past few months. I wasn’t sure how to dig myself out of this
deep depression. I refused to call a doctor and be prescribed “uppers”. I knew
that something was terribly wrong, like something had broken. And not only was
it affecting me, but those I loved.
The journey that started last summer, this path of
discovering who I am, taking care of myself, loving the child I am of the
universe had led me to a holistic approach as to how to nix this state of
darkness. My intuition told me that I was experiencing something outside of my
control. I didn’t need a Band-Aid to help. I knew that somewhere deep within,
these negative emotions were becoming stronger and were taking over my life, it
was as if there was a dam that had been broken and it was threatening to take
over my entire being with its inky deep void. These negative characteristics
(jealousy, extreme anger, sadness, exhaustion, defeat, fear) went against the
grain of who I am naturally. I missed my energetic self; the person that was
typically always laughing, loving life, loving those around her. I had become a
monster and I needed to stop it dead in its tracks. With help. So I went to an
energy healer not really knowing what to expect or what would take place. I did
not expect to dive into my past, pull out skeletons, revisit those feelings and
become a blubbering mess. But I did and it wasn’t very pretty. The healer
started working with these energies, taking what was bad, healing my spirit
slowly and deeply. Towards the end of our session, I swear I heard birds
singing so clear and beautifully, instruments being played in the distance and
I felt so at peace I heard myself stating that I never wanted to leave.
Once I did leave, I left lighter. As though something had
been physically removed. I feel awakened, less burdened, I can hear the birds,
feel the sun, see my friends in a different light. A dark veil had been lifted.
I get emotional talking or thinking about it because I was in such a dark place
when I had sat on that table and I feel such love and happiness now, such
gratefulness for the universe placing Cleo (the healer) into my life. I am now
back on that path, but with a much clearer state of mind and focus. I am
working on becoming that spirit I always wanted and was meant to physically be.
Enjoying this journey, living in the now, working on a better me. One that can
offer back to the universe what it has given me. I, as always, hope to inspire
you to fall into loving yourself, taking care of you and allowing yourself to rely
on the universe for help. Always follow your intuition. Your body knows when
things are off. Just listen to it. To
become who we are meant to be means that we need to be healed, let go of
what has been holding us back, shed the negativity. I want to become a beacon of light
and love for not only myself or my loved ones, but for the entire universe. Those
are my goals. I want to live in love, feel love, be in love for all that
exists. I am looking forward to unraveling my shell and discovering the core of
who I am. I haven’t quit met her yet. But I bet she is beautiful, just as you
are.
Much love,
Carla
Carla
