Its been so very long since the last time I sat here in from of my screen preparing to write a post. Or even opening my blog at all. Have you ever felt as though a part of you took off like a bear into hibernation? And you tried to look for that missing piece, it was so tucked away you could not find it, no matter how hard you tried to. That is exactly how I have felt these past few years. A large piece of my creative self just sort of fell away. Maybe because I needed time to wrap myself in a cocoon state of mind to one day emerge as butterfly? To find some footing and figure out who this new person I was was to become. I have changed immensely over time due to so many major life changing events. As you well know I endured splitting from my partner of 10 years, but then in addition I left my secure 9 to 5 job of twelve years to pursue becoming an entrepreneur. In the end, both events catapulted me into this independent self driven woman making dreams come to life. Of course, I haven't done it all alone, as I have been blessed with my current partner (and fiancé) who has not only supported me but also continues to fuel the fire that drives the passion within. Although he has always been by my side through the majority of these new chapters, it took a lot of healing and self reflection on my own (and I do not mean weeks, months or just one year.....I mean years) to finally feel like I've overcome hurdles and healed wounds that if not examined or faced would just keep showing up at my doorstep. At last, life is this sparkly gem, magic, that is just waiting for me to take it and run. In healing these parts of me, just like that, that hidden piece that I had hoped would revisit has decided to reawaken. Although its a comfort for this creative side to come back, it feels different too. A bit familiar, but a bit more wild and unbridled. There are no cages this time around, this new piece of me is free to just be. The end result of facing my biggest fears and turning a new leaf has made me realize I am perfectly capable of achieving anything in life that I put my mind to. And I am sure so many of you can relate.
This right here, writing, is what I have missed so very much. Its an outlet that is so therapeutic. I need it to focus, to get my thoughts out of my head so that I can find some peace from the chatter within. With this new awakening of creativity has also come with it a renewed passion to learn and re-explore that magical path I was once on. As it has always been a piece of me since a child, the intrigue never fully left. But I took a break from magic being so prominent in my life and now that its back I realize how much I have missed this side of myself as well. Just like lighting a candle, it has shed light on so many facets of myself that I am delighted to explore once again. Rereading my past blog posts, my journals that hold multitudes of recipes for Celtic Roots (a business between my best friend and I crafting herbal remedies), my personal spiritual journey over the past years, old Pinterest boards that hold so much research on the spiritual and fae realm, collecting new crystals.....all so inspirational and breathtaking. And with this awakening has also come another new chapter in career, which I will reveal in another blog post.
I am just so happy to be back!!!
Much love and light,
Carla
Ps: Please be patient as I re-do the look of my blog and update the material. Thank you kindly!
